Running to get no where ......

The car goes speeding by only to be sitting next to you at the stop
light . The wheels squeal the little strip of rubber remains on the
road and as you get to the next light ~ and hear the sirens
coming from a direction you aren't quite sure of you look to the
right and notice the car that just passed you and another that is now
around a utility pole and the side drivers side dented in .

People rushing to get no where fast.

Kids thinking they are all that and more with their hot rod 4
cylinder pieces of fiberglass and aluminum .

Children having sex to prove they are grown up . Children having
children to prove they are adults . Babies suffering and falling into
the system. Some slipping between the cracks.
Child protection gets calls about mama for 10 years ~ for 10 years
they do nothing
The baby grows up going from shelter to shelter , living off family ,
living off friends.
Then the friends go away . Mama gets her next fix of meth and goes
back to jail and the child is shuffled off to
someone ...else ......again.
Everyone rushing by , no one looking at what is happening.

Adults doing drugs to prove they are still young Children doing
drugs to prove they are mature and able to handle it .
The doctors are writing prescriptions in hope to cure the world or
maybe to get a kickback on the newest drug .
Pharmacists fill them without knowing that the person who paid won't
take one of those pills but sell them on the corner to someone else.
People rushing by and not bothering to see that the pain they feel
could be cured by a hug ~
people not stopping to see that the smile they didn't give is one
they didn't get .

Hurry here , Rush there , no time to stop , no time to breath . No
time to smile or time to see. No time for love no time for grief.

Stop , Breath, Breath again . It will all be there tomorrow.

why do we close our eyes when we pray, when we cry, when we kiss, when we dream?

Because the most beautiful things in life are not seen but felt only by heart..

the heart can never be broken ~

I will say he had broken my heart , my heart has been broken, , i
will never love again. Then there is the obsession on what could i
have done differently, if i had only been thinner, prettier, been a
better cook . The heart doesn't break by emotions and unless it's a
cancer or medical it is indestructible . It is not that your heart
stops feeling but becomes more vulnerable , it feels everything !
Your friend looses their job, you feel sorry for them. You feel as
badly as if it had happened to you . The words to a song you've
heard hundreds of times all of the sudden become your song , so
descriptive of how you feel.

That you are feeling is proof that your heart is not broken. The way
to heal the loss of love is to give more . !! Adopt a puppy ,
visit a nursing home, plant a tree, walk in the park and just feel
nature . Love does go on.

if only

This morning I received a text from a friend ~ her third marriage
ended like the other two .. if only

How many times does one say , if only , as if it where just one thing
that would have changed everything.
If only I hadn't said ......
then no one would have known how you felt
You would have kept the feelings inside forever
You would have always wondered " what if"

If only we had ...
If we had gotten married, had children, separated sooner
I would have been happier ? i would have had less regrets, I would
have met my real love.
What if is what you choose it to be.
do not dwell on the past, look forward to the
future .

One of my favorite quotes :
Never yield to remorse, but at once tell yourself: remorse would
simply mean adding to the first act of stupidity a second.~~ Nietzsche

the GIFT

" Love is always bestowed as a gift-
freely, willingly, and without expectation...


One day I may understand people. Perhaps one day I'll understand myself.
Is there only one always love? Does love actually exist or is it the illussion of being in love that causes the heart to soar ? When the illussion is gone does it take with it the spirit ? Maybe it's best to just raise puppies .

Another New Year

Is this another opportunity to start over ? or just a different type of New Year ? Samhain is the night the spirits visit more freely as the veil between the worlds is thinest.January first it's just pass the spirits !!!!! Spread some cheer and put away the good feelings and sharing of the yule time season along with the decorations from the Christmas tree . I prefer not to try and understand anymore the reasoning of Christmas when it ends so quickly and what is left is the bills and credit card payments the good will forgotten .